I am learning everyday that friends are extremely hard to come by. I spend a lot of my energy trying to push friends to the very best they can be, sometimes this ends up meaning I have to be pretty harsh. I have always had tough love shown to me, an it made me who I am today, but that seems to hurt most of my friends more than it helps them. I wish I knew how to sugar coat the truth but unfortunately that is the same as rocket science to me. I could always look for new friends, but the soldier in me won’t allow me to quit on my old ones. What is the reason for you saying we are friends, but you won’t let me in? You won’t tell me whats wrong. I don’t like to be kept at arms length, but that is what seems to always happen to me. Should I give up an let go? I feel this is holding my life back in quite a few ways.